So…. it’s been awhile.
It often takes me awhile to figure out what exactly it is that I want to do, then to go ahead and how and when to get started and finally — FINALLY– to actually start. It may be a bumpy ride…
I am frustrated.
I have been doing Crossfit about 3x a week for almost a year now (I started in September 2012), and mix it with occasional running, which I still do. Yet in that time, the only weight that I have lost, was the 10 lbs I lost while I was sick with the flu over my birthday week. I was SICK! Like, could not even get out of bed for a week, sick. It sucked!
Simply put, the point I am trying to make is this: I love Crossfit, I love to run (and exercise in general) and I LOVE to eat. The latter part, the EAT, is my nemesis.
I don’t really like to cook. Sometimes I do, but that comes in unpredictable spurts. Most of the time though, I do not enjoy cooking, or the mess that comes with it.
I have lost weight before — and got down to a healthy weight. The problem was that in getting there I was not doing it in healthy ways, as it was a time of great stress in my life, and I was not terribly efficient at coping with it. Once I lost the weight, I did OK for awhile, until I panicked and lost sight of why I was doing it.
Now I have gained much of it back. I am currently hovering at about 210, but it fluctuates as high as 219-221 on a daily basis. This is an issue which I do not fully understand.
l am so incredibly frustrated when one day I step on the scale and it reads 210.0 and then later that same day (when, feeling successful, I actually make an even MORE concerted effort to make good food choices) the scale reads 218.8 and the next morning it’s still 216.4. The following morning it reads 211.6*
Full Disclosure: This is an actual example.
I can grasp the scale fluctuating by a few pounds and I know that typically you should only weigh yourself one time a week. The problem was I was seeing these fluctuations on a weekly basis and feeling defeated. At least now that I know that this is a daily occurance, I don’t feel quite as confused.
Every day I’m trying to pick myself up and move forward.
Every day I‘m starting over.
I hope that you will follow along.